As I sit down to write you today, I want you to know last week was rough for me. Is that okay? Absolutely! We are all bound to have rough days, weeks, months, or even years but it’s all in how we handle it. My emotions have been high, my anxiety has been all over the place, and I have simply felt lost. At the end of the day I survived it, and I managed to get that much stronger. I ended up having an amazing weekend with amazing people. I am proud of myself for not letting my anxiety and depression run my life. Does it sometimes overtake my thoughts? Of course it does, but I fight my way back out, and those closest to me help me in more ways that they know.
I surround myself with people who make me laugh at the most stupid things until my stomach hurts, who embarrass the crap out of me until my face turns red, and who lift me up when I feel like I don’t even remember how to stand. I am so thankful for each and every one of you, because without you (you know who you are) I wouldn’t be as strong as I am today. I’ve had a lot of obstacles in my path and a lot of demons that I continue to battle, but these people help me to realize that I will never be alone, and that I will make it out okay. They remind me that “I am enough”, so that I can sit down to remind you, that “you are enough” my darling. Even on your darkest days when you feel like you have no more to give, that no one cares, and you feel like you just simply suck, I appreciate you. I love you. I know that “you are enough” my darling and you are stronger than you realize.
If I have learned anything in my 21 years on this Earth, it’s the simple fact that those who we surround ourselves with have a huge impact on our life. Find a couple people who appreciate you and all your awkwardness and never let them go, because at the end of the day those are the people who care about you. Those are the people who will constantly check up on you. When I was younger I always wanted to be a “popular” girl but as I got older I’ve realized not everyone is genuine in this life. Trust me you will be able to realize who is genuine and who is not in a matter of minutes. I have a small circle of friends who are simply the best, and I wouldn’t trade them for 100 friends even on the darkest of days.
A lot of people tell me how they feel bad for everything I’ve endured in my life, and how I don’t deserve any of it. While yes I might agree with them a little bit, it’s made me the strong woman that I am today, and I am so thankful for that. Every road block I’ve hit, every stubbed toe, and every tear shed was worth it for this moment. The moment I started to believe in myself and this amazing life I was given.
We are strong. We are enough. We are beautiful. We are intelligent. We stand together. I am always here if any of you ever need to talk. I will not let you walk this path alone. I love each and every one of you.
I am Chloé Danielle and this is my Journey.
Love always, Chloé Danielle